I wish everything in my life could have turned out different. My wife Cara and I are getting a divorce. I never wanted this to happen either. People think I'm a thief, and I'm not. My wife told me we could just file for a divorce and we can see if we can get back together in the future. She says she loves me, but we need help. I just have this feeling that when she files the paperwork that she is going to say that she doesn't want to be with me at all anymore. I also have this feeling that she wont let me see or talk to my daughter Eliza anymore.
     
      I just wish there was a way to prove that I'm not a thief, and a bad person. Everyone thinks it though, maybe i don't need to be on this earth anymore. Apparently all i do is hurt people. Maybe  everyone would be better off without me. I wonder what people would say about me when I'm dead and gone.

      The only way to find that out would be is die. Then I could go to my own funeral and see. There would probably be hardly anyone there. There would be no good words spoken about me either. I know what people think about me. I'm not stupid, some people think that I am. I know whats been said about me too. It hurts that people, people I love would call me a thief.

      I have had problems in the past, but I would have never stolen from a family member. If I would have know about the object I wouldn't have tried to sell the watch. I have been around the world and I've been to college 4 times. Still people treat me like a dumb ass, and tell me i know nothing. Well for right now this is the last blog I do for a while. Hopefully it will turn out different.